Get out of my head.

Looking good! Enjoying the smoothness?

Awesome, thanks! I guess I’ll get the hang of it eventually :3

Wow, that eye makeup is on point! Can you share what products / techniques you’re using? I’ve found it almost impossible to get anything other than gel eyeliner to stick.

I guess I’ve been having thoughts of “if I was a girl…” or “if I was trans…” for as long as I can remember. Definitely had a few times of “please let me wake up as a girl tomorrow” when I was 12/13 or so, but I got quite good a suppressing that. The “if…” thoughts were fine, of course, since I clearly wasn’t trans or a girl…

Fast forward to about six weeks before my 40th birthday; following quite a few trans women online and starting to question my gender. But since I’m perfectly happy being cis, that’s fine, no problem. I’ll be an Ally.

Two weeks or so pass, start looking at egg_irl. A day or two later, everything comes crashing down and it’s panic time. That lasts a few days and now I know: I’m a trans girl, and I want to transition. Came out to my family, started growing my hair, painting my nails, buying neutral-to-fem clothes etc. Stopped wearing obviously masc-coded stuff pretty much right away (even when going out). Made appointments for laser and HRT consultation.

About six weeks later, research indicates the doctor is probably going to make me wait 6 months to a year for HRT, so I order DIY. That arrives two weeks later (yesterday), and here we are.

Not using new pronouns or name yet, but I feel that might happen fairly soon.

Hooray! Thanks to Kaity <3

Fingers crossed! Let’s show that beard the door 👉

I’m wondering if that’s going to change once I get on E. It’s possible I just have (literally) thick skin.

Looking at a chart I guess maybe ash blonde? It started almost white when I was very young (and bits of it are heading that way again). Facial hair is a bit more of a dark reddish-brown.

If I end up prepping for SRS, I think that’s going to have to be electrolysis (TMI? sorry)

I have already altered the deal gender; pray I do not alter it any further.

That’s cool; you do you!

“What, these? No, they belonged to the last guy to misgender me.”

Here you go!

That’s a very good way to put it; I know exactly what you mean. (There should be PSAs on TV for this kind of thing: hey, kids! If you experience this, you’re probably trans!)

I’ve always (until very recently, of course) really hated buying clothes. One of the factors leading up to my egg-crack was my wife (justifiably) nagging me that my clothes were all falling apart and I really needed to get some new ones. She even very kindly offered to order some for me online. But I just… couldn’t. The idea of buying and wearing this stuff wasn’t something I could recognize in myself. And, at last, I realized that there might be something bigger going on.

That’s genius! Just watched a tutorial, and I’m going to destroy some T-shirts!

I wonder if it would look good over a tank top? Still haven’t quite figured out the “layers” thing.

Haha, alright. I’ll try to get a shot with Blåhaj :3

Hooray! Good luck!

Oh! Good idea!

I should get some pretty belts 🤩

Yeah, it lets the cats come in and out of the bedroom at night without having to open the door for them.

🐱 (cat)

The label’s in Chinese, but the internet tells me it’s 60% Rayon. (I got it as part of my shotgun “buy everything cheap and girly on Amazon” experiment)

Now that you mention it, the collar might be why I don’t feel too stupid wearing it. I’m used to seeing my face sitting above a collar, but the whole thing is obviously feminine which keeps the dysphoria at bay.