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I’ve been trying from different doctors. I’ve still been denied on the same basis. That I’m not feminine presenting enough for them, I’m probably never going to be enough by their standards I don’t really like dresses and I only wear makeup to conceal blemishes and a few face scars I have.

I used to try doing voice training but whenever I do a girl voice it sounds like a man trying to sound like a woman. I practiced for a long time and made zero progress. I shared on the voice training subreddits and they confirmed that it does sound super masc. I’ve basically given up at this point, it sucks and feels helpless. I might as well not even bother since even when trying the best I can people will still instantly clock me.

This shit is why I haven’t tried shrooms. I know it’s incredibly unlikely, but it’s just enough to scare the shit out me. I didn’t need my egg cracking during a trip and I try to do an at home, diy surgical transition.

I don’t think it’s likely unless you have really bad penis dysphoria already, believe me, you’ll know if you do. Though your egg cracking on a trip is still possible even if you don’t hate your penis, and that can be scary and uncomfortable. IMO best to do it while not tripping.

It’s likely they had strong genital dysphoria or other issues surrounding their penis. Most people don’t have the desire to cut off their penis, mushrooms or no mushrooms. I’ve had friends with bad dysphoria who did it, no mushrooms needed, but I can imagine someone also doing it while they’re high.

War on drugs is being fought in this comment section with downvotes and shitty fear mongering, and just that little bit of thinly veiled transphobia.

Lemmy may harbor less transphobes than Reddit does but they’re still here, these ones are just the ones transphobic enough to click downvote, but too scared of repercussions to speak their mind, I wish they would so they’d be banned faster.

Oh definitely, many of my friends who did that did in fact have issues urinating afterwards. It wasn’t great, also reduces the amount of workable tissue for bottom surgery (vaginoplasty uses the existing penile and scrotum tissue to construct the neovagina) though in their case that was never going to happen either due to money, transphobic medical care, or health reasons that got them denied care in the first place.

I have a strong feeling it could’ve also been from gender dysphoria in addition to all that. I should know, I’ve had my fair share of unpleasant genital dysphoria, and while I didn’t do that I wanted to. I also know those who have indeed done it, they did it without any mushrooms but I could see how one of them could’ve done it on mushrooms.

I used they/them because when it comes to people who aren’t quite out it’s hard to know what they may or may not be okay with. Some people aren’t at the point where she/her is comfortable, denial can be really bad as well. Also might be a transfem enby, we don’t know that much about them though.

Sounds like they had really bad gender dysphoria if they resorted to cutting off their penis. I’ll admit I’ve wanted to do it myself many times, but was never able to go through with it physically. I still occasionally have weak desires to do it but my dysphoria is much better these days due to how much it has shrank on estrogen.

Sometimes when dysphoria is really bad and access to gender affirming care is denied, there isn’t much choice. It’s sad and scary that for some of us this is how it must be but that’s just the way things are sometimes.

My thoughts exactly, I’d have to guess they had severe bottom dysphoria, I’ve had friends who did it for the same reason, no mushrooms though, they just did it out of their sheer desire to no longer have a penis attached to them. Gender dysphoria is no joke and really sucks. I probably would’ve done it too if the Estrogen hadn’t shrunken it so much (and the fact that I’m a wuss when it comes to blood and pain).

No but I’ve wanted to real bad from gender dysphoria, didn’t have it in me to get through to do more than a surface level cut before the blood and pain got to me. For not having one myself I am a pussy when it comes to blood and pain ☹️

Yeah body horror can be very relatable in many ways, because in the same way they are turning into something unpleasant and grotesque, to many of us, our assigned sex at birth carries very similar feelings.

I’m very happy too. Though it’s hard being on DIY since I have to be careful and the changes have been slower than normal. Really wish I had been able to do it officially but I guess getting HRT without degrading yourself is too much to ask ☹️.

I have a feeling it could’ve been gender dysphoria. I’ve known people who did that to themselves because of penis dysphoria and they weren’t on mushrooms, it’s likely they did this to themself for similar reasons and just happened to be on mushrooms.

Because for many of us it’s lifesaving. I still really want it but I want it less than I did before since HRT has shrunk my penis substantially, before I literally wanted to cut my penis off and I fantasized a lot about doing it. I had friends who actually did, and they still ended up killing themselves bc of it. Bottom surgery saves lives.

Don’t be a jerk and just treat us as you would treat any other woman. It’s not hard, if it feels hard maybe you might not be as nice of a person as you think you are.

Sometimes it do be necessary for some of us. Lucky for me mine shrunk a lot on E, or I very well might’ve done what they did.

Edit: Transphobic dipshit downvoter has no understanding of just how bad it can be to have gender dysphoria. I hope you never have to feel just how truly awful it feels like to be born in the wrong body and feel out of place in life. It sucks royally.

I have a feeling they had some serious penis dysphoria, and were using the mushrooms as a coverup so they could cut it off without being outed. I had friends who had dysphoria that bad and couldn’t get bottom surgery due to expense or transphobic doctors and they took matters into their own hands, sadly for many it wasn’t enough and they took their own lives because of the dysphoria.

It feels really shitty that people are mocking this person for this or saying they’re crazy, dysphoria is no joke, and if E hadn’t shrunk mine as much as it did I may have done the same as where I live I can’t get bottom surgery unless I can “prove I’m a woman”, I wouldn’t even have been able to get on estrogen if I didn’t DIY it for the same stupid reason. Thank goodness for grey-market estrogen online.