I’ve been on HRT for two years, why do I still look like a man, why do I still look like this, why is my dystphoria worse than ever. Why do I hate myself so much. Why haven’t I’ve been loved and snuggled. Im just so sad with everything honestly can’t sleep.
Picture isn’t loading for me, but based on the comments you may be experiencing body dysmorphia. Sometimes as hrt takes its effect dysphoria becomes dysmorphia. And the biggest thing to understand is that dysmorphia doesn’t reflect reality and it doesn’t respond to pharmaceutical treatments, but it does respond to therapy. Try seeking a trans friendly therapist who deals in it. Speaking as a trans woman who has a different kind of body dysmorphia (I struggle to believe I’m skinny) it’s a real struggle and self hate doesn’t help, it just leads you to self destructive responses.