I know ive made post like this before, but I really do feel pretty defeated, I just dont look anything like my selfies to others, I look pretty awful to be honest, I weight 200 lbs and its been a struggle to loose weight, I know the solution is to see a dietation, and only stock my home with healthy foods and go to the gym maybe but the truth is I can’t really afford that and I dont feel like I can really cook until I move since my mom is kinda defensive over the kitchen. Ive struggled with binge for a while and I just look at photos other people take me and want go vomit, I look so awful. I look like zero months hrt dispite a bit over two years of hrt. My selfies only look okay cause of angles. People have also tried to convince my male fat will redistribute but I know that isn’t true and that it will stay until I get rid of it. Also I apologize for the grammer in this post, I’m writing this as I’m about to mentally explode.
I hear you. I read atomic habits a few years ago (not a plug, but I think it’s a good book), and the author talked about building new habits and getting 1% better at something. And if you aim for that every day, it will compound over time to something much bigger. Some days you can take on the world. Other times showing up and doing one thing toward your goal is enough. As long as you are putting in the effort, that slow progress still counts (even if it feels frustratingly slow).